i love the whole world...

And dengan tertibe nyer aku telah di"tag" oleh Cik Puan Lisa.... so here goes:-


**The Who's
Who Was The Last Person You Talked To?
Mawee... thank you for the ride to the mosque dude!!

Who Was Your Last Kiss?
hahaha a gentlemen never kiss and tell ;P

Who Knows The Most About You?
My mom, my sis

Who Can Make You Laugh No Matter What?
my friends from SMTTAA, Tim "the toolman" Taylor, P Ramlee

Who Can You Always Count On?
hm.. my mom, Shay

Who Has Your Heart?
She has it... though i do not have hers

Who Is or Was Your Favorite Teacher In School?
En. Syaifuzzaman. My form 5 BM teacher... i have seen my unfair share of punishment during school though none thought me a lesson like Mr. Syaifuzzaman's. Heck he didn't even caned me... because of his punishment i when on to aced my BM in SPM....

Who Is Your Best Friend(s)?
the boys from SMTTAA domitory D4 and D2 (1996/97 batch), karl and jay, alex, eypol, jeep, mawee, mr. know it all, code, pozan.

Who Loves You?
my family i guess.

**The What’s
What Is Your Favorite Song At The Moment?
thunder by boys like girls and situasi by bunkface

What Are You Looking Forward To?
everything is bleak... that pretty much says it huh??

What Is Your Favorite Color?
Red, blue and green

What Website Do You Visit Most?
friends' blogs,Facebook,liverpool official website, teamtalk, soccernet, torrentportal, google news.

What Is Your Favorite Smell?
the smell of grass after a rainy day and the smell of HER car's air freshener.

What Is Your Favorite Movie?
forrest gump, saving private ryan and armageddon... cloverfield too i guess.

What Makes You Mad?
dateline

What Curse Word Do You Use A lot?
typical malay words used when irritated.

What Kind Of Phone Do You Have?
Nokia N82... used to owned a Sony Ericsson Z530...

What Was The Last Song You Listened To?
Runaway Train by soul asylum

**The When’s
When Was The Last Time You Went To The Mall?
Last weekend.

When Did You Talk To Your Crush Last?
Talked to her this morning thru YM... face to face ? last friday during/after berbuka puasa.

When Do or Did You Graduate?
about 3 or 4 weeks ago.

When Is The Next Time You’ll Do Something Fun?
i dont know yet... probably this weekend at our usual annual berbuka puasa event with the dudes of SMTTAA... though it seems to be less and less of us.. i blame marriage... people stop being fun after marriage.. i wonder why....

When Was The Last Time You Ate or Drank Something?
5.29 a.m this morning.

When Is Your Birthday?
10 November 1980

When Was The Last Time You Went To The Movies?
i cant even remember... i think citer sunshine kot... long time ago lah

When Is Your Parents Birthday?
Mom's 23 June..

When Were You In The Car Last?
Just now... going for friday prayer.

When Will You Be 21?
Haha is this a trick question?? Was 21 about 6 years ago... but i feel wayyy younger inside..

When Will You Be Taking Your Next Vacation?
Dont know... got no plan for any vacation what so ever..

**The Where’s
Where Do You Live?
Kuala lumpur, Malaysia...

Where Is The Best Place To Be?
Next to being in my room....?? African continent... the animal, the desert, the pyramids, the ocean... what's not to like...

Where Was Your Last Vacation?
Damai laut, lumut, perak... if that can be counted as a vacation.

Where Were You Born?
University Hospital Kuala Lumpur

Where Is Your Best Friend?
Kuala Lumpur and in the cyberspace.

Where Was The Last Place Your Were Besides Your Own House?
The office here in Cyberjaya.

Where Do You Think You’ll Be In 10 Years?
on my own.. no more mommy to nag me, no more sister to keep bugging me... woo hoo... bliss

Where Is Your Cell Phone?
In my pocket

Where Are Your Parents?
My mom is in her office la at the moment...

Where Was Your Display Picture Taken?
what?? the one in this page??... at the parking lot, berjaya times square...

Now sayer pun meng"tag" Karl, Nasir, Azreena and Yingze.

Thunder...

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder



Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain...

Yeah Im walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder, and i said

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder


Thunder -- boys like girls

feverish damage unaltered yet spoilt day

I got a fever... argh I hate this... 2 days into my new job and I got a fever... cant write the script any worse huh ??... and I hate to go and see the doctor... they always find a reason to poke people... or shove that damn thermometer down your throat... hopefully some panadol and some old-but-still-unexpired medication will stop this stupid fever... i hate being sick!!

Work is great so far... ye lah baru masuk maner ade keje lagi... tengok monitor je lah keje aku hahahaha... this place is aint bad... not as bad as I've imagine... hopefully by next week I wil get something to do... being idle, though relaxing as it may seems, is not very good for me... I might forget everything that i have done for the previous company..... and with all the firewall policy / content filtering, there is only so much you can do with the internet access... apart from me being sick of looking at the monitor.. I think I'm ok with the whole tukar kerja thingy... you know me... never certain of anything.. LOL.

Ramadhan has been good so far... still manages to berpuasa.. hahaha I know I know I'm not a little kid anymore... I mean the berbuka part is sure is different now that I'm older... used to stuffed myself until I cant get up and go for the terawih prayers... nowaday.. makan pun kurang... most of the timela... there are still someday yg aku makan macam tiada hari esok... so far berat still constant.. sket pun tak turun.. aik.. pelik nie... aku puase aper... hmm... something is very wrong here.. let's give it a week more eyy... tengok aper jadi... though aku rase takde mende jadi.. dah bertahun dah bulan puasa comes and go... aku still camtu gak...

so anyway enough la about me and my new obsession of keeping score of my weight...

So I finally graduated about 2/3 weeks ago... nothing much to shout about... I thought graduation day should be fun... it sure does not seems like I am having the time of my life there.. ahh well.. sometimes I expected too much... as long as the degree is there that should be enough for now... no plan to continue studying though.. not at the moment... part time study is hard... 4 years seems like an eternity.. (ewahhh.. hahahaha).. ok lah not eternity.. but it sure feels like more than 4 years... though looking back at it... some of the things sure feeling like it happened not so long ago... growing older sure sucks eyyy...

I'd upload some picture here as soon as i feel like it... I think this blog need some spicing up (ada ka perkataan spicing??)...

ok that's all folks...

- let it just happened -

The joy juice

The comments (if any) were me-specific :) ... was just browsing for ideas...

Love is when you when you can't stop thinking about her. You got that right :D
Love is when you find yourselves holding hands and neither remembers initiating the contact. Never happen.
Love is when she comes over to your place and remembers a carton of milk for breakfast cereal.
Love is when you find yourself having a great time clothes shopping, just because you're together.
Love is when you get some great news or some sad news and the first person you feel like calling is her. Oh hell yeah
Love is when you feel all ill at ease and moody because circumstances prevent you from seeing her for a day or two. Yup, stupid shift arrangements
Love is when you remember her birthday. Even though you had to write note to yourself and stick it on the dashboard of your car. I don't think i need a note... it's imprinted on my brain and my wasted heart.
Love is when you run back into a burning building to save her favorite stuffed toy that she had since childhood. Hm.. yep i could see myself doing that for her... if only she knew.
Love is when she cooks you a cake and feeds your cat while you are away for the weekend with the lads.
Love is when you wake up in the middle of the night to find her staring at you and she says "I am so lucky to have found you". How i wish
Love is when she spends two hours talking to your mother and is still sane afterwards.
Love is when she grips your arm during the scary bits of the movie. Not at the stage yet (movie going together)... never will
Love is when you walk through the park at night and she says "I feel so safe with you". How i wish
Love is when you see something she'd like and buy it on the spur of the moment, just because you know she'll smile when you give it to her. Again, i could see myself doing this
Love is when you find yourself hanging out her underwear on the clothes line and you are happy to do it. Hahahaha... could not see me doing this yet ;P
Love is when you sign both yours and her name at the bottom of your Christmas cards.
Love is when you put her sexual fulfilment before yours.
Love is when she wears something sexy just to turn you on.
Love is when the car breaks down in the middle of nowhere and rather than complaining she starts kissing you instead.
Love is when you carry ALL the shopping bags for her. Small matter.. got trolley what?
Love is when she bumps her funny bone and asks you to kiss it better. What the hell does funny bone mean??
Love is when you cancel the basketball match with the lads, because she wants you at her parents dinner party. Football with friends or girlfriend/wife... tough choice... but if it's the girl I'm so head over heel at the moment , yeah screw football... being with her is much better.
Love is when she lets you watch the XFiles and you sit through Melrose Place. Not X Files... premier league.
Love is when she says "My period hasn't come yet" and you manage to play it cool and not panic.
Love is when she laughs at your jokes despite the fact that she's already heard them all before.
Love is when you unlock and open the passenger door for her before getting into the car yourself. I should start doing this, though it seems lame kan??? anyway should start to do this more often.
Love is when you jokingly say "Honey, I'm home", and it actually feels right.
Love is when you spend all Sunday morning in bed together.
Love is when a sexy woman walks past and you don't even notice. haha wishful thinking.
Love is when the same sexy woman asks you to rub suntan oil onto her body and you don't because your girl wouldn't approve. Again, wishful thinking... but achievable... you'll notice her, yeah for sure.. touching her is another thing... i can see myself saying no to this.. (like this will ever happen to me hehe... )
Love is when, for no reason, you see mundane things that have always been there and find them beautiful. Love is blind and makes you see things... haha
Love is when you walk along the footpath curb, like you did when you were a kid, and laugh for no reason. Smiling is more like it
Love is when you visit your parents and actually hug your father, because your girl has opened the sensitive side in you.
Love is when you race each other to the train stop, but then you let her on first. This is easy.
Love is when you lift her in your arms and carry her to bed. If i could carry her then yeah why not huh???
Love is when she calls you at the office just to hear your voice.
Love is when she lets you order olives and achovies on the pizza. What is olives.. i'm sure i've eaten it before...
Love is when you sit up all night talking about your innermost doubts and fears and she actually listens and understands.
Love is when you share the same glass, because it saves on the washing up.
Love is when she sits in your lap at parties even though there are plenty of other seats. She can sit on my lap anytime she wanted to...
Love is when she gives up smoking for you.
Love is when you go halves in buying a bed. uhh?? tak paham.
Love is when she lets you take a photo of her and you end up using the whole film. haha yeah that's me. She's so beautiful it hurts... hehehe
Love is when you write her poetry and use the word "forever". err??
Love is when your friends buy you his and her bath towels, and always refer to you as "those two".
Love is when you sell your car just to buy a plane ticket, and chase her across the world to say "I'm sorry". Hahaha... she's worth it.. i'd do it in a heartbeat.
Love is when you smell her scent on your clothes and it floods your mind with happy memories. Just the thought of her brings happiness... ahh crap.. i'm so weak.
Love is when, after you've broken up, you compare everyone else to her and find them all lacking. hmm... btol la tu kot.
Love is when, after you've broken up, you cry after looking at photos of her. Now this is just pathetic...
Love is when you contemplate driving your car off a cliff because you can't stand life without her. Everyday my friend, everyday
Love is when you live. I agree with this completely
Love is when you soar.

Oh btw, news on me in case ade org nak tau la...
1. Will finally be graduating in a week time.... dapat ler ko degree aku tu.. pergh lama siot aku buat study part time.... tapi rase cam kejap jer.... dah 4 tahun ker aku belajar??... time flies by so freaking pfast I tell you.... seems like a few months ago jer aku almost flunk my Maths.... i am comteplating nto going fr the convocation... never liek to follow protocol.. by my mom is nagging to go... now maner mau carik suit/blazer/coat... pakai jeans and t shirt tak leh ker??... bukan nampak pun.... kena pakai jubah... protocol yg bodoh.... nak pinjam kengkawan.. tak muat pulak.. perut ku dah tak bulat.. now it is elipse in shape... hahaha... beli rugi pulak pakai sekali jer... hmm.. so jeans it is.... tak bagi masuk dewan aku dok luar je lah.

2. I will be moving to another company (again???).... s tat will be about 4 jumps in 7 or 8 years working... prett ybad record huh??.. but the offer is definitely very very good..... and this time i try to do the right thinks... hopefully i;'m still in the good books.. i definitely wants to comeback later.

Futsal tournamnet is just around the corner... need to start gettig in shape..




source: http://www.geocities.com/brillohead/loveis.html

it hurt so good~!

The trip back to KL from Lumut... people are tired and all.. so there was no singing along to the guitar tune like the trip to Lumut.

i'm tired and i have lost of the passion for writing and the passion to live... this blog is dying even before it was reborn... nothing knocked the wind out of you like a broken heart....

how am i to chase when there is no end in sight... i cannot be chasing a shadow... it is fruitless... how can i accept defeat when my heart is so stubborn... even when defeat is the only choice left... i want to change .. i want to be positive.. i want to show her that i can... i guess i will always be the substitute people...