the hate protocol

I look through the window beside my cubicle... it's feels like being stagnant... everything stopped... I wish for the rain to come... ease this unknown weary I feel inside... the sneaky evil malice that would eventually makes you do things you'll regret...

and then there's her... the very thing that should never re-appear but she did... and I thought I have been liberated... how wrong was I... the temptation to stop everything and start over again is overpowering... leave all the things I have built for the past 2/3 years just because I cant handle her??... I could just be a jerk and tell her off now could I?... or I could be a gentlemen and reason with her... even though the last time I did that... she still insisted on harassing me on a daily basis... it's not because I hated her... I just cant handle her clingy-ness (is there such a word??)... and I really thought I like clingy girl... how wrong was I... if this green monster ever show it's ugly face I will probably just be a jerk and tell her off.. or be a coward and let my friends do it for me... I just don't want to be associated with her anymore... you and me... we are just too freaking different to actually survive the emotional roller coaster that comes with being in a relationship... lets leave it there... no point going over the same facts over and over again... it read the same way upside down... we were never meant to be... or at least I seems to think so...

in honor of despair... the shining light in an otherwise dying world

“This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you”

Early morning girl

Sometime early this morning, my sister gave birth to a beautiful and healthy baby girl... so that makes me a proud uncle.. huhuhu...

A very big welcome to the world lil' baby girl... I'm going to be the best uncle you'll ever had...

I should probably start thinking about having one myself... unfortunately I cant find a girl that would actually likes me enough to marry me... hahahaha

I wonder if my sister would let me named her daughter... now that would be awesome... hehehe

when the cold nights seems bereft of joy
you came and brings us warmth and happiness
cries of awes echo through the sand of time
so suddenly, even the stars do not have time to realign

burning the midnight oil

experience the joy it brings... the moments that would last an eternity... a fight that would make others turn green in jealousy... enjoy the pleasure it brings

laugh at the silly jokes even when it doesn't make any sense... smile at the mere sight of her presence... when colors are monochrome... everything is in black and white... except for the both of you...

Share those treasured moments of each other company... while it last... because for all the fun and joy... happiness is a temporary state of mind... once reality set in... you are nothing but 2 strangers trying to make it work...

pessimist as i am... reality bites... we both know that misery loves company...

blind as i choose to be... expect the truth to hurt... even the optimistic ones...

the truth in my lies... and the lies in my truth... both are open to interpretations...

I am merely writing in the comfort of my fort.. stone cold heart with bloodshot eyes...

I need to get myself some sleep... hahahahaha :P

Epitaph

Are we dying by the suffocating grip of fascination?

Is infatuation a crime punishable by breaking the heart of one self?

Are you tired of this proverbial mundane ordinary routine of living a life worthy of dying?

Is falling for someone an unconscious reaction to being alone?

Where is the wiser when answers are no where to be found?

What will become of us if we keep on wondering?

When is this quest for explanation is going to end?

subtlety and not aristocracy

a shinning light in the face of mediocrity

break me free of this complacency

I don't want to be just another face in the crowd

Don't want to lead another meaningless consumer driven life

I'm tired of breaking someone else's fall

I'm done with playing the role of a mole

a caffeine laden drink and cocaine lined utensils

tell me if I'm telling an untruth

It ends tonight when the darkness turn to light

I'm sorry but I cant give you what you're asking of me