I remember watching an episode of How I met Your Mother where it revolves around keeping someone on the hook... you know that girl/boy who clearly likes you but you don't really see them more than just someone to comfort you when the going gets tough... in fact you don't really see their heartfelt pleas and effort to win you over... you choose to ignore it but you kept them close just in case you need that boost, that shoulder to cry on or that someone to cheer you up... and those who are on the hook would gladly accept that role even if it hurts... I know this because I am on a hook... I know I should not let myself be used... but the heart want what the heart want... and depending on how you choose to see it... the heart is either the strongest muscle or the weakest muscle in your body... and usually it doesn't matter how you see it... once you are in this kind of situation... the will of the heart overpowered the logic of the brain and we, wittingly or not, got caught onto the hook and forever tied to pain it brings... OK well, forever is a strong word... I believe that each person are strong enough to break free eventually... the thing about being kept on the hook is... once the realization sets in or the pain become unbearable... you'll let go of the thing that hold you down... "I think you blind to the fact that the hand you hold is the hand that holds you down"... well I admit it... its not that I don't see the situation I am in right now... but I rather get burn than feel nothing...
I don't know why I linger... well, I do know actually... it just, I can't find the courage to let go... who knows I might just stand a chance... I slim hope, I know (given the odd and the fact that girl repulse me with the fire of a thousand suns, for reasons I can't figure out)... but it is worth it... she is worth it... the situation is not helping... nor does the time... I wish I can wait forever... but forever is a long time... sooner or later, I am going to reach my limit... maybe then I'll be free of this hook... maybe then I could start seeing the wonderful colors of the world again... but until then... let me be on this hook, regardless of how slim the chance maybe... because I just can't find anything better to do... "I'm maybe dumb but I'm not a dweeb"... there are every reason to leave but just 1 reason to stay... I see the positives in the negatives... or maybe I'm just retarded... either way... this pain of being kept on the hook is rather interesting... there are days when it soothe the soul and there are more days when it hurts like a ..... (add your own words here... I can't think of any at the moment)....
“It's so hard to forget pain, but it's even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness..." chuck palahniuk
Good nite lovely people... have a nice ride on the hook roller coaster... wounds and scars remind us of where we have been... people who have no wounds or scar don't live at all... they are just tagging along for the ride...
Another awesome quotes I found on the net
“It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds
remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar
tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”
Human body are designed to protect themselves from harm... physically or mentally... like computers... the access to bad memories are withheld until we are strong enough to face them back again...
Actually I found that another way to get over your fascination is to have another fascination... hahahaha... overcome your inability to free yourself from the hook by getting attached to another hook... but in the long run.. this did more bad than good... pain is something we need to deal with.. it takes time; so give it time... though some wound never truly heal... at least it'll be less painful if given the right amount of time to recover...
Well, that's it for my random rambling for tonight... again, good night lovely people... may tomorrow brings mermaids to your seaside dreams :)
