Janji

semalam aku berjanji
pada kata yang sering bermain helah
seteguh benang yang basah
hanya penuh dengan kosong
tiada intipati
hanya intuisi yang serong
mencalit cela
melahirkan pertanyaan
yang membawa aku ke sini
di selubungi bayang keraguan
janji mu
hanya sehebat
kata kata dibibir merah mu
dusta yang berlapis manis bicara
bersulam senyum tawa yang menggoda
direka untuk memukau
kecamuk jiwa pria




 

I am at a loss for words

Written under the influence of cannabis tobacco.

  

Darkness falls

as the confusion sets in

there's a rumor brewing in the west

of hallucination bring forth by a substance

illicit dreams with the strike of a match

giving life to limitless imaginations 

slowly obliterate free will

  

and yet here I am

and all I wanted was her

the only substance to complete me

keep me going through this motion

in the city of three eyed creatures

watching my every move, like a sentinel

save me from my own make believe perils

  

empty winding roads filled with goblins and trolls

and men without eyes blindly stray towards the edge

there in the corner, stand a lonely princess

looking at me as i'm watching her

big blue eyes hiding her bereavement 

her piercing gaze, firm yet exquisite

no orcs of the west would dare to face such beauty

and I am mesmerized, turning into a statute 

I tried to hide my stare

Hidden in plain sight

so there I wait

a reluctant figure, frozen in time

waiting for the princess to free me

from the clutches of the evil empire

slowly creeping from the west

#stuckinlove

Written under the influence ofcannabistobacco

forging an inadequacy

Slowly suffocate

in a world of hate

half dead existence

merely a consequence

and not nearly of any essence

but we will be just fine

perfection is not all about being complete...

The death of sincerity

good looks
charmed
the restless heart
and they rejoice
in the death of sincerity
bitter hearts
zombie-like
wander the lonely street of animosity
the crestfallen graffiti
grenade shaped heart
let it be known
purity is blurred by emotions

a hearty break (up)

"Am I fooling myself (waiting for you)" I asked.

she looks down on her feet, hiding her face from being read.

no words were uttered, echoing the muted response I get

The chemistry slowly fades, no more nervous laughters

So here we are, the point of no return

a fork in the road

to be or not to be

so I blew out another cloud of smoke

a rush of nicotine fix to my iron lungs

I can hear her sigh

disapproving of my addiction

she dig her feet further into the sand

the silence has turn awkward

still she hide her face from my stare

animated taunts now filled the air

betraying the trust I had in us

she takes my cold hand, and now our eyes locked

"I couldn't lie anymore" she said

I saw some colourful fences in her glass eyes

I fake a smile, sad torns in my eyes

"That's alright now, darling", a lump in my throat

"it was worth it while it last" 

So I let go of her soft hands

We gave each other one last look

and that marked the parting of our ways

It could have been good but I gave myself way too much credit

another vicious cycle continues

another dead end avenue

in the city of heartbreak