Selamat Hari Raya

Well in about an hour or so from now Ramadhan will be leaving us and Syawal will be here for us to rejoice and celebrate... and with that I'd like to wish everyone "Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri dan Maaf Zahir Batin". May we have a blessed and wonderful time this hari raya... drive safely and bon appetite... ;P.

Arab style lamb from cyberview.

Dishes from our futsal team break fast @ malee

McDonald's time...

Ah bliss....

- will be leaving for my howetown (malacca that is) tonight after break fast... huhu cant wait for tomorrow to come :P

And frozen eyes were meant to bleed

the stars realigned...
nothing is ever in a straight line..
cold feet and all the wishy-washy whispers...
hinder my solace in the warmth of the beautiful isolation...

more than 1 hour and that is all i can come up with... lame.. pretty lame...
so anyway... i felt like this is the time to actually bring myself up from the rut I'm stucked in for the last 7/8 month... gotta start somewhere ey???... well actually next month is more like it ( yeah i know.. procrastinating is bad.. but that's who i am)... so here to a new start (i hope)...

Tomorrow (or rather today) is the last day for work as i will be on leave until next Monday... I am going back to my hometown after all... the company was kind enough to let me take 2 days leave in advance since i have yet to accumulate any leave (maybe just 1 day kot). So i will be driving back to Malacca on Hari Raya itself as my mom and sister do not apply for any leave this hari raya... cant wait... though i don't really look forward to hari raya anymore.. the older you get the more ordinary hari raya is... or is it just me??? so anyway... definitely looking forward to see old friends from my hometown... if there are still there.. most of them are married and most probably have gone back to the in-laws.... if there is no one around.. I'd just probably do a walk around on my old stomping ground... some great memories there... damn i wish i had a nice enough camera to take some photos to bring back to KL... now it seems like a two days leave is not enough... oh well...

I'm so lost... i hope to find a way out of this rut... it's not a big deal really... i have a tendency to over complicate small issues... 'cause I'm sure as hell wont be bothered by big issues... they don't happened all that much and usually i am powerless to stop them... the small ones on the other hand happens everyday...

The Move...

This could be the beginning of the end of something i desperately don't want to end.. or this could be the next stage of it all... evolution that create new dynamics of how things works now... or i could be wrong... this would not change anything at all...
but if i'm honest, then yeah... this will change a lot of things... most if not all... I'd still feel the same way about it...


oh well whatever it is... there is no way around it...

Good luck, beautiful.

Tagged By lil' miss Azreena

1. The person who tag/pass you is?
Lil' missy called azreena (sorry it took me this long to do this... was busy doing nothing really)

2. Your relationship with her/him is?
Online sibling hahaha... ok online friends...

3. Your five impression of her/him?
==> We're alike in term of pessimism
==> She rocks!!
==> One clever girl
==> Easy to talk to
==> She just love to be creative with photos/pictures

4. The most memorable thing she/he had done for you?
Since we just knew each other for a few months... the only thing i can think of is being there when i wanted to talk to someone... and she also told me about Marie Digby promo gig at OU.. which neither of us gets to go to.. hahaha.

5. The most memorable thing she/he had said to you?
Something about trying to change our pessimism... haha don't work since both of us is still very much a pessimist.

6. If she/he become your lover you will?
HAHA... laugh/cry myself in disbelief... such thing will never happen

7. If she/he become your lover, thing she/he has to improve on will be?
Erm... dunno... be more girlish?? i dont know.. dont even know her in the real world...

8. If she/he become your enemy, you will?
Hide... you dont wanna be enemy with her... hahaha

9. If she/he become your enemy, the reason will be?
She decided to support Manchester United instead of Liverpool.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for her/him now is?
Get her thru the exam period...

11. Your overall impression of her/him is?
She's lively and clever .. more than she's willing to admit.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
Happy i hope...

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
Pessimist, useless and funny (kot???)

14. On the contrary, the character you hate yourself are?
Pessimist, useless and whinny

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
Dont know... sick of being me... sick of copying others... so i dont know

16.For people that care and like you, say something to them :
Thank you...

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.
They are :
1 Karl
2 Jay
3 Shay
4 Aida
5 Lisa
6 Junkie_lady
7 Yingze
8 Apiz
9 Lan_be
10 Alex

18. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
Dont know... another of my cyber friends... oh wait i i think know la, cant remember the name tho.

19. Is no.9 a male or female?
male. duh.

20. If number 7. and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
Haha... i dont know... they do not even know each other... it could be good or it could be bad.. who knows.. they got to get hook up first... number 10 is already seeing someone i think.. well last time i check he did.

21. What is no.2 studying about?
Was doing I.T. now he's into banking... what a waste dude...

22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
Last Sunday

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
XPDC... used to la.. i think.

24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
That would be a yes... 2 younger bros and an older sis.

25. Will you woo no.3?
what...??!!! that would be sooo gay.

26. How about number 7?
haha... we are comfortable at being just friends.

27. Is no. 4 single?
Nah...

28. What is the surname of no.5?
Nur-aldeen.. i think.

29. What's the hobby of no.10?
Cars.

30. Does no.5 and 9 get along well?
They do not even know each other.

31. Where is no.2 studying at?
No longer in college... Working for a bank now.

32. Talk something casually about no.1?
Karl is looking for something to be complete... and i'd like to find that something too.. hahaha

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no.6?
Haha... she's like a sis i never had.

34. Where does no.9 live at?
Somewhere in Shah alam.

35. What colour does no.4 like?
If i had to guess i'd say pink.. but she knew i think she look hot in a red top... :P

36. Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
Again they dont even know each other.

37. is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
Haha.. i dont know... She's someone i met on the bloggosphere so i dont know how sexy she is... from what i've read.. she's sexy enough to melt your heart.. hahaha

38. What is no.6 doing now?
I dont have a clue... working la i guess...

i love the whole world...

And dengan tertibe nyer aku telah di"tag" oleh Cik Puan Lisa.... so here goes:-


**The Who's
Who Was The Last Person You Talked To?
Mawee... thank you for the ride to the mosque dude!!

Who Was Your Last Kiss?
hahaha a gentlemen never kiss and tell ;P

Who Knows The Most About You?
My mom, my sis

Who Can Make You Laugh No Matter What?
my friends from SMTTAA, Tim "the toolman" Taylor, P Ramlee

Who Can You Always Count On?
hm.. my mom, Shay

Who Has Your Heart?
She has it... though i do not have hers

Who Is or Was Your Favorite Teacher In School?
En. Syaifuzzaman. My form 5 BM teacher... i have seen my unfair share of punishment during school though none thought me a lesson like Mr. Syaifuzzaman's. Heck he didn't even caned me... because of his punishment i when on to aced my BM in SPM....

Who Is Your Best Friend(s)?
the boys from SMTTAA domitory D4 and D2 (1996/97 batch), karl and jay, alex, eypol, jeep, mawee, mr. know it all, code, pozan.

Who Loves You?
my family i guess.

**The What’s
What Is Your Favorite Song At The Moment?
thunder by boys like girls and situasi by bunkface

What Are You Looking Forward To?
everything is bleak... that pretty much says it huh??

What Is Your Favorite Color?
Red, blue and green

What Website Do You Visit Most?
friends' blogs,Facebook,liverpool official website, teamtalk, soccernet, torrentportal, google news.

What Is Your Favorite Smell?
the smell of grass after a rainy day and the smell of HER car's air freshener.

What Is Your Favorite Movie?
forrest gump, saving private ryan and armageddon... cloverfield too i guess.

What Makes You Mad?
dateline

What Curse Word Do You Use A lot?
typical malay words used when irritated.

What Kind Of Phone Do You Have?
Nokia N82... used to owned a Sony Ericsson Z530...

What Was The Last Song You Listened To?
Runaway Train by soul asylum

**The When’s
When Was The Last Time You Went To The Mall?
Last weekend.

When Did You Talk To Your Crush Last?
Talked to her this morning thru YM... face to face ? last friday during/after berbuka puasa.

When Do or Did You Graduate?
about 3 or 4 weeks ago.

When Is The Next Time You’ll Do Something Fun?
i dont know yet... probably this weekend at our usual annual berbuka puasa event with the dudes of SMTTAA... though it seems to be less and less of us.. i blame marriage... people stop being fun after marriage.. i wonder why....

When Was The Last Time You Ate or Drank Something?
5.29 a.m this morning.

When Is Your Birthday?
10 November 1980

When Was The Last Time You Went To The Movies?
i cant even remember... i think citer sunshine kot... long time ago lah

When Is Your Parents Birthday?
Mom's 23 June..

When Were You In The Car Last?
Just now... going for friday prayer.

When Will You Be 21?
Haha is this a trick question?? Was 21 about 6 years ago... but i feel wayyy younger inside..

When Will You Be Taking Your Next Vacation?
Dont know... got no plan for any vacation what so ever..

**The Where’s
Where Do You Live?
Kuala lumpur, Malaysia...

Where Is The Best Place To Be?
Next to being in my room....?? African continent... the animal, the desert, the pyramids, the ocean... what's not to like...

Where Was Your Last Vacation?
Damai laut, lumut, perak... if that can be counted as a vacation.

Where Were You Born?
University Hospital Kuala Lumpur

Where Is Your Best Friend?
Kuala Lumpur and in the cyberspace.

Where Was The Last Place Your Were Besides Your Own House?
The office here in Cyberjaya.

Where Do You Think You’ll Be In 10 Years?
on my own.. no more mommy to nag me, no more sister to keep bugging me... woo hoo... bliss

Where Is Your Cell Phone?
In my pocket

Where Are Your Parents?
My mom is in her office la at the moment...

Where Was Your Display Picture Taken?
what?? the one in this page??... at the parking lot, berjaya times square...

Now sayer pun meng"tag" Karl, Nasir, Azreena and Yingze.

Thunder...

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
Im holding on to something and I do not know why I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what Im feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder



Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I dont know, whoa
Today Im on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I dont know

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain...

Yeah Im walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didnt want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
Youll always be my thunder, and i said

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other?
Youll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder


Thunder -- boys like girls

feverish damage unaltered yet spoilt day

I got a fever... argh I hate this... 2 days into my new job and I got a fever... cant write the script any worse huh ??... and I hate to go and see the doctor... they always find a reason to poke people... or shove that damn thermometer down your throat... hopefully some panadol and some old-but-still-unexpired medication will stop this stupid fever... i hate being sick!!

Work is great so far... ye lah baru masuk maner ade keje lagi... tengok monitor je lah keje aku hahahaha... this place is aint bad... not as bad as I've imagine... hopefully by next week I wil get something to do... being idle, though relaxing as it may seems, is not very good for me... I might forget everything that i have done for the previous company..... and with all the firewall policy / content filtering, there is only so much you can do with the internet access... apart from me being sick of looking at the monitor.. I think I'm ok with the whole tukar kerja thingy... you know me... never certain of anything.. LOL.

Ramadhan has been good so far... still manages to berpuasa.. hahaha I know I know I'm not a little kid anymore... I mean the berbuka part is sure is different now that I'm older... used to stuffed myself until I cant get up and go for the terawih prayers... nowaday.. makan pun kurang... most of the timela... there are still someday yg aku makan macam tiada hari esok... so far berat still constant.. sket pun tak turun.. aik.. pelik nie... aku puase aper... hmm... something is very wrong here.. let's give it a week more eyy... tengok aper jadi... though aku rase takde mende jadi.. dah bertahun dah bulan puasa comes and go... aku still camtu gak...

so anyway enough la about me and my new obsession of keeping score of my weight...

So I finally graduated about 2/3 weeks ago... nothing much to shout about... I thought graduation day should be fun... it sure does not seems like I am having the time of my life there.. ahh well.. sometimes I expected too much... as long as the degree is there that should be enough for now... no plan to continue studying though.. not at the moment... part time study is hard... 4 years seems like an eternity.. (ewahhh.. hahahaha).. ok lah not eternity.. but it sure feels like more than 4 years... though looking back at it... some of the things sure feeling like it happened not so long ago... growing older sure sucks eyyy...

I'd upload some picture here as soon as i feel like it... I think this blog need some spicing up (ada ka perkataan spicing??)...

ok that's all folks...

- let it just happened -