Song for the new year - 2009

The Blues -- by switchfoot


Is this the New Year or just another night?
Is this the new fear or just another fright?
Is this the new tear or just another desperation?

Is this the finger or just another fist?
Is this the kingdom or just a hit n' miss?
A misdirection, most in all this desperation

Is this what they call freedom?
Is this what you call pain?
Is this what they call discontented fame?

It'll be a day like this one
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in

I'm singing this one like a broken piece of glass
From broken arms an' broken noses in the back
Is this the New Year or just another desperation?

You're pushing till you're shoving
You bend until you break
Till you stand on the broken fields where our fathers lay

It'll be a day like this one
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in

There's nothing here worth saving,
Is no one here at all?
Is there any net left that could break our fall?

It'll be a day like this one
When the sky falls down and the hungry and poor and deserted are found
Are you discontented? Have you been pushing hard?
Have you been throwing down this broken house of cards?

It'll be a day like this one
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in

Is there nothing left now?
Nothing left to sing
Are there any left who hasn't kiss the enemy?
Is this the New Year or just another desperation?

Does justice never find you? Do the wicked never lose?
Is there any honest song to sing besides these blues?

And nothing is okay
Till the world caves in
Till the world caves in
Till the world caves in
Till the world caves in
Till the world caves in
Until the world caves in
Until the world caves in
Until the world caves in
Until the world caves in
Until the world caves in
Until the world caves in

mistake

- a rare moment of misjudgment... will it haunt me for the rest of my wasted life??? -

The space between...

I don't hate you anymore!!

I think I finally managed to forgive you... I know that I may not know the whole story... but from where I stand... you are to blame... so I blamed you for everything that is wrong with me... it is easier that way... I'm so used to blaming you that I do not feel any guilt at all sometimes... but good things don't last forever.... and I finally figured it out... I have to let go... I can't move on while still hanging on to this... and I know I cant blame you for every mistakes I made... it is time to forgive you... Hating and blaming someone who is six feet under does not really help anyway... I've gotta deal with my issue on my own... not to put in someone else hands... so here goes...

I do not hate you anymore, father... believe it or not... there were times I wish things were different... somehow things would have been better for us all... life does not always give us what we wanted... that's just how life is... I can't remember what did we talked about the last time we met... all I remember is calling you "dad" seems awkward... even you admitted it yourself... we share a laugh... I remember calling you "dad" because i don't know what else to call you... I will treasure whatever memories I had of you... sorry for blaming you for all my mistakes... thank you for m.a.s.k. toys, the foods, the rides in the mall when I was little.... man I wish you would let me inherit your guitars and violin...

Rest in peace... my prayers are always with you... may we see each other again when my time comes...

Weekend quotes

*boy meet girl, boy get stupid, boy and girl live stupidly ever after! -- Wilson

brilliant, just brilliant hahahahaha

* House M.D.

**trying not to care, that's hard to do!

** Star Trek: Voyager

I'm such a geek!!