i am an inconvenient

I hated the fact that I'm so gullible
I hated the fact that I got myself into this hole once again
I hated the fact that I kept on repeating my mistakes
I hated the fact that I don't learn my lesson

I tried to be accomodative
but look at where it got me
I tried to be understanding
but that is becoming too unbearable

I hate this feeling
it is never amazing
I hate this longing
it is never fulfilling

I hated that I write stupid poem
Instead of something better
I hated that I actually do like her
Instead of hating the fact that she doesn't feel the same way

I am weary
and unpretty
lifeless freak
and utterly undesirable

Resistance is futile

This place is dead and void of feeling
aneroxic thoughts of vomits and pukes
diabetic hearts where lonliness breeds
anabolic steroids for aspiring evil

allergic reaction to establishment
more antihistamine for the unwary minds
another streams of influenza
enough to cause a histeria

phlegm of yesterday
plague-ridden the present
polutting the future
the extiction is inevitable

A fool for love

the way she sway in the wind breeze
the fact she hurts even in kind
the truth of her that I would not accept
the throbbing pain her gaze causes

that mesmerising look on my stoned face
that swirling colours that followed her steps
that sweet smell of her that lingers
that sinking feeling her absence leave behind

my heart skipped a beat in her presence
my pain heals in her proximity
my breath drew shorter at the sound of her voice
my knees buckle when she whispered the words I longed to hear

am I a fool for being this way
I guess I am for she is an angel I could not touch

“Get It Right”

What have I done?
I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn’t good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

Can I start again, with my faith shaken?
Cause I can’t go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I’ll get through this

What can you do when you’re good isn’t good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

So I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn’t fair!
Yeah, I’ll send down a wish. Yeah, I’ll send up a prayer
And then finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when you’re good isn’t good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

An original song by the cast of glee...

Current wishlist

I wish money grows on trees....

1. A Canon 5D mark 2 DSLR camera

2. A decent enough telescope... decent = above RM1k

3. A Macintosh desktop/laptop... I really do hate Apple but they are really ( and i mean really) good for editing videos and music... now I need to learn how to do the editing first before wasting my money here...

4. A pair of Jack Purcell shoes... a converse with a nice twist to it :) (maybe more than 1 pair, better to waste money on these than any other shoes. They are cheaper than any leather shoes... and i hate wearing shoes (except for converse))...

5. A refrigerator... haven't had one ever since I moved out of my mom's place... I need cold drinks :)

6. A capo... a very cheap thing that i have managed to buy yet because I'm a lazy person

7. Effect pedals... enough said

8. Keyboard and keyboard lessons...

9. A studded belt.. scratch that... just got one the other day....

10. A makeover so that girls could see pass my ugliness and actually give me a chance to sweep her off her feet... hahaha dream on aboo...