i am an inconvenient

I hated the fact that I'm so gullible
I hated the fact that I got myself into this hole once again
I hated the fact that I kept on repeating my mistakes
I hated the fact that I don't learn my lesson

I tried to be accomodative
but look at where it got me
I tried to be understanding
but that is becoming too unbearable

I hate this feeling
it is never amazing
I hate this longing
it is never fulfilling

I hated that I write stupid poem
Instead of something better
I hated that I actually do like her
Instead of hating the fact that she doesn't feel the same way

I am weary
and unpretty
lifeless freak
and utterly undesirable