Letter to anonymous

nak tunggu ker or should I just cut loses and start anew?... A few weeks ago, aku dapat job offer dari satu company yang based dekat cyberjaya jugak... the offer is quite attractive, better salary (well actually almost the same cuma kat sini to get that figure aku kena la OT banyak2) and a chance for a new adventure. New adventure tu tak sure sangat la since I'll be doing what I'm doing now... tapi at least in a new work environment, a new IT infrastructure and i really want to go.. sebab aku dah terlalu selesa dengan keje sekarang.. dah takde thrill... everyday is the same as any other day... I have learn as much as I can from it... there are no longer the enthusiasm from me towards my work... I started to take things for granted these day... datang office pun ikut suke hati... agak agak aku malas aku kerja dari rumah ajer... semua kerja aku buat ala kadar... takde lagi the urgency to treat problem with high priority... takde lagi tarikan about my work... I'm, for a lack of a better word, exhausted... not from being overwork but from being there for so long without any significant progress.... I'm stagnant and irrelevant... a forgotten monument from yesteryear...

The problem is now... after a few weeks I still have not gotten the offer letter... semuanya yang dijanji dan dibincangakan ade lah only verbal agreement... some email but nothing concrete... aku plak sejak dapat offer tu makin malas nak bekerja... now if i'm being played... leceh la... I need to get back my mood kerja... and we all know that is pretty hard to do... no one likes to work but commitment... financial commitment yang menyebabkan kiter tahan jer la and terus bekerja... 

I have been doing a lot of thinking lately... about the future... something I don't usually do since I hate the unreal expectation I seems to always come up with.. hahaha, yeah I have an unrealistic view of the future.. like the zombie apocalypse... or aliens invasion... man that would have been so wonderful.. no more work... it's all about surviving... anyone can be a hero... jackasses and jerks will perished... and you can look like a hobo and still get girls... hahahahahaha... see, unreal right ??? I need to live in the real world and not in my oh so comfortable virtual world... alien invasion is more likely to happen dude... it's a vast space out there and I for one second cannot believe that we are the only intelligent life form out there... there must be others... reanimating the dead is definitely more complicated than suggested in the silver screen or TV... t-virus is a myth... 

So okay, I'm merapu pulak dah... that company called me last week and said that it might take a little longer for them to get me the offer latter since they are waiting for the US management to come to down Malaysia to discuss about the hiring (well the US management is coming down for a site visit or something lah aku rase)... then maybe by the 20th aku boleh tau la if the verbal offer is concrete or not... there also the complication of my release from my current company... see, i am supposed to give a 2 months notice but that company would like to buy out my contract so I could join them much earlier.. but i have a planned holiday with my mom, sister and cousin lah hujung bulan 11 nie... komplikasi yang melecehkan... but I would really like to blah dari sini by end of November... sebab early December the disaster recovery test/simulation dah start... Dah 4 tahun layan bende nie.. malas la pulak nak join tahun nie... 

Ok people... aku nak pi mandi and gerak pi office... dah nak lunch hour nie aku tak masuk office lagi... hehehehe.. Happy Tuesday... semangat sket nak kerja tu!

I'm no good and I don't belong...