Static space...

I know I'm kidding myself... I will always be on the outside looking in... and this window pane, it gets old after sometime... I cant keep doing this...

A feast for greedy eyes

Phuket was awesome... It was so awesome that I didn't want to come back... but we all have responsibilities and commitment that we cant simply get out of just like that... so with a heavy heart, I boarded the plane back to KL... I was a wreck going to Phuket and I was hoping I would come back in a better condition... Well I did for a while until she called and asked me to join her for a movie... Which was great since I knew that she was over her ex as per information from her bff... but I guess I got excited over nothing... the experience makes her even more cautious... well at least cautious enough not to make me her rebound guy... I guess it was never meant to be... we were great as friends... maybe even better as a little bit more than friend but just not to that level that I wanted to be.. the lovey dovey super mushy being madly into each other... so I guess this is the last time I'm trying... I have been pursuing her for far too long... so I'm moving on

So I spent 6 days in Phuket in early April... I was supposed to go there last year but work got in the way and the money I spent on the ticket got burned (yeah they said they will pay me back but it was never in black and white)... So finally I managed to get out of work and come to Phuket... and it was awesome... it was beyond awesome.. I just can't find the words for it... I went for 4 tour (krabi, phi phi, james bond and phuket city tour) and each of it was excellent... Maya bay was picturesque but too damn crowded... Raya island is super fantastic... and not to mention the friendly Thai girls... hahahaha I actually made a friend or 2 with the local girls... It was easier to make friend with the guys... well 2 is better than nothing at all... :P

Surrounded by bikini-clad chicks

Luckily I was already in KL when the tsunami alert was issued and thankfully nothing happened...The same thing happened to a friend of mine back in 2004 but the tsunami did happened and we know the rest of the story... She was at Phi Phi a day before the tsunami hit... a close call... so anyway.. don't want to bore you guys/girls with my boring story of Phuket... I'm planning to go back there again in the distance future...

Pantun jiwang kot...

Akar tanjung pagar selasih,
Balung kulit berisi serai;
Alangkah teruk menanggung kasih,
Tak kerana kulit tulang bercerai.

Kelip-kelip kusangka api,
Kalau api mana sumbunya?
Hilang ghaib kusangka mati,
Kalau mati mana kuburnya?

Kalau memerah limau kasturi,
Sebelum diperah buanglah bijinya;
Harta habis boleh dicari,
Patah hati apakah ubatnya.

Padang Panjang dilingkar bukit,
Bukit dilingkar kayu jati;
Kasih sayang bukan sedikit,
Dari mulut sampai ke hati.

Orang Acheh pulang ke Acheh,
Mengail kurau dapat senangin;
Bukan mudah kita berkasih,
Laksana wau melawan angin.

jauh lamunan ditampung siku,
tatapan mata jauh di ufuk,
sekali kau senyum aku terpaku,
sekali kau merajuk akan ku pujuk

*dicopy and paste dari sumber2 yang di suggest oleh google, kecuali satu sahaja yang ditulis sendiri

To get her... to forget her and and to accept that reality is not what it used to be

Dearest you,

This might not be the last time I decided to give up on pursuing you, but it sure feel like one. It is not that I have stop liking you, I really does not believe that is even possible. It is just I'm tired of waiting for my chance. I have waited for a long time without ever being given a chance. I would continue to wait if is does not affect my mental health but it does. I find it hard to concentrate on other stuff such as work and friends and I'm beginning to slowly fade away into oblivion. So this is to let you know that I no longer plan to wait. I'm hoping to move on. This chapter have been awesome for the most part, you have been the most tremendous almost girlfriend I ever had.

So I bid you adieu, may you find what you seek.


P/S:- If or when you decide that you might finally give me chance, please do let me know... for I am a loser who would actually turn back on my decision and not learn anything at all from all of this.

"I'm maybe ugly, but they sure love to stare"

Regards,
Almost (doesn't count)

Cukup la tu kot...

Penat dah nak tunggu... so yang ni kira last lah... letih la aku tunggu... asyik2 kau balik kat dier jugak... cukup la tu ek... bukan nyer aku dah tak suke... tapi aku dah tak sanggup... sampai biler la nak aku tunggu... sedang kau tak pernah nak beri peluang... takpe biar sakit sekarang... at least sekarang aku dah tau hati kau camner... we were good together... it just.. you were never interest on anything more than just a platonic relationship... and I am... so cukup la usaha aku selama nie... bukan tak mau kawan... tapi it wont be fair to both of us... how do you expect me to be friends when i secretly hopes that you would ditched him for me... how can we be friends when every time we were together... I'm hoping to his place in your heart... hati aku tu ko simpan lah... nanti aku dah ready nak terjebak balik dalam kancah orang berchenta nie aku datang kat hang amik balik naaa....

dah almost 17 hours tak isap rokok... mintak2 boleh terus berenti lah... patut time kecewa2 nie la banyak merokok tapi batuk aku dah makin teruk... silap2 boleh mati nie kot.. ewah2 berdrama queen lah plak... so anyway... wish me luck... i'm trying my best to quit...

"good bye my almost lover"