platonic or otherwise...
I read in an article not so long ago that it is believe that a man and a woman could not be friends.. well they can pretend to be friend... but in truth, there is always a motive behind it.. be it romance or just lust.. haha... so now i look back at my own pathetic life.. and the friendship/relationship that i have or had...
i used to have a very good female friend.. it started as a crush as well.. but i give up very early as i thought i dont have a chance (yeah see the similarity with all the "relationship" i had before)... at least back then i know when to give up unlike the last "relationship" that i tried to start... but we became very good friend after that...
Recently before she got married she told me that i did have a chance... but i did not take it.. hahaha... what a timing... she told me a few weeks before she going to get married... haha.. but it is all too late and i look at her as a good friend now... it just wasn't meant to be... it's all good
The dynamic of a friendship/relationship between a dude and another dude is very different to a friendship/relationship between a dude and a girl... at least i seems to think so... why? i dont know... if i know why.. i wouldn't have so much trouble trying to keep a friendship purely platonic... which in my eyes is very hard to do... well if you dont have any ulterior motives.. sure it can be done... but that ulterior motives will crept up sooner or later... aku rase la... hahaha
in the real world i have lots and lots of male friends and very little female friends... why?.. i dont know... i seems to fall for every female friends i have (ok not all.. but it happened more often than not... though on some occasion i manage to get through it unscathed... only on 3 occasion that i failed to handle it... but that 3 occasion was, to me, a real falling head over heel for someone... but that's what i think la)... which i think is the reason why i have such a small number of female friends... i hope this wont make any female (who read this) dont want to be friends with me...
In the cyberworld i seems to have more female friends than male friends... go figure... hahaha... maybe in the cyberworld i am more interesting than i am in the real world... i dont know... i am not interesting at all.. cyberworld or not... but in the cyberworld it is very easy to mingle and get to know other people due to the lack of face to face interaction...
damn it is almost time to leave the office....
will get around later (much later) to revisit this...
Jimmy eat world - kill.mp3
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